Had a thought, but think I forgot it..
A while ago I
was driving home from wrk, feeling displaced.
Like I woke up in the wrong dimension or reality or me.
I had a strange notion that if I stayed still and let my eyes slip out of
focus, that I could dissolve.
fade, melt, whatever but I would somehow return to a state of absolute me,
the original, the ultimate me.
Then I started thinking, maybe I shouldn't try to dissolve here in the middle
of traffic.
Bella would be stuck alone with the crazies.
Then I started thinking about how sometimes I get the feeling of movement
while I'm sitting still
(if anyone knows the medical term, lemme know),
then I noticed that traffic was moving again and the whole dissolving notion
dissolved.
I had completely forgotten this until I read Stacey's "pills thrills
and bellyaches" post, "and the temptation is there to just make
everything all float away".
I often forget how far away I can go in 30 seconds, and how it can all be
brought back in that contact-high kinda way by someone else's wrdz weeks after
the fact.